It's the last day of 2010, and I can't help but feel that this was a year of constants. First year without her. A year full of school, and school, and school. Loss of organization and focus. Circling in this ring of indecision I've managed to trap myself in. I had typed up a lot more, but decided that it was all a bit unnecessary and pessimistic, so I'll leave 2010 at that.

I'm really hoping that 2011 will be a year of much more substance. For just one second, I'm going to pretend that the changing of the year really does change me and my life... that it isn't just some meaningless number. When the clock strikes midnight this evening, a switch will flip in my brain and everything will be better. ...right?